Thank you, I really appreciate this reply. I am definitely not going to run out and break up, but I just feel really eehhhh about it. This was my first love and my first relationship, and it took a LONG time for me to stop having starry eyes, and now I feel like, is this really what I want? If I hadn't been so naive, inexperienced, and lonely in the beginning, would this relationship ever have gotten off the ground? But at the same time I can't imagine living without him. I think maybe I just need more time to myself, but I don't know how to ask for that without feeling guilty for hurting him. I haven't talked to him about any of this and I know he would be completely blindsided if I brought it up, and that makes me feel guilty. For almost the entire time, I've been the one who is more devoted and invested and I'm not sure how he would take it if I were like, I just need some space.